On Oceans of Blue

"love is patient
love is kind
it does not envy"*
thank you millions for that
cus green is a hideous color
puke after a violent night of whiskey
"it keeps no record of wrongs"*
"hallelujah
grace like rain"**
cus i have wronged
and a pardon for those sins
unthinkable
unimaginable
indescribable
i am rendered speechless
once again
in this previously uninhabited
body of oxygen waste
You live
You love
and "love is patient"*
so patient
with this field trip gal
no other way to love
stubborn ole me
so please be in my thoughts
fill my life like salt and water
fill the seas
extend Your amazing grace
to wrap Your arms around me
comfort my guilt
guide me through this maze
of repercussions
thank you God
for allowing life in pencil
all sins erased
only the faint trace
on school paper
of my worldly payments
my earthly consequences
of past transgressions
THANK YOU!!
for my new #2
when everyone around me
struggles with pen
attempting to flaky white out
that wont stay
but float away
in Satan’s red flakes
ill consider it "pure joy"*^
to test my faith
in trials and tribulations
"amazing grace
how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch like me"**^
because i truly am a wretch
a natural born chained sinner
I AM FREE
hallelujah!
hallelujah!!
i am free!!

*1 Corinthians 13:4-7
** Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone) by Chris Tomlin
*^ James 1:2
**^ Amazing Grace by John Newton

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me….
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

T’was Grace that taught…
my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear…
the hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares…
we have already come.
T’was Grace that brought us safe thus far…
and Grace will lead us home.

The Lord has promised good to me…
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be…
as long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forbear to shine;
But God, who called me here below,
Will be forever mine.

Shall I be wafted through the skies,
On flowery beds of ease,
Where others strive to win the prize,
And sail through bloody seas.

When we’ve been here ten thousand years…
bright shining as the sun.
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise…
then when we’ve first begun.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me….
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

[A/N] so i went thru and looked up amazing grace. this is every verse i could find. most versions are only sung with stanzas 1, 2, 3, and 8. ive heard a few of the others before but not often. if you know any more verses to it, id love to have em most of this was written by john newton i believe but other verses have been added on, over time, from what i understand. his story is really cool. if you have some spare time, look it up. interesting

suppose you find $1 million laying on the sidewalk in your neighborhood (not win or inhert but find). there is no one around but you. what do you do?

the tears don’t end

it’s shocking

there’s so many of them

i didn’t think i had the capacity

for so much

there must be gallons

and they keep leaking out!

I don’t have to think

i don’t have to focus

I just feel

horrible

and they keep coming

all i have to do is

stifle the sobs, the cries

the outcries of anguish

so nobody hears

nobody asks if i’m okay

or what is wrong

but let the tears flow

down my cheeks

Silently

if i hear someone coming, i’ll wipe them off and stop for a bit until they are gone again

then they’ll resume

nonstop

my shoulders can shake

my stomach can lurch

but these lips will stay sealed tight

let the tears flow

but don’t let anyone hear

i’m not alright

i’m not okay

i’m broken

and my eyes hurt

[A/N] Okay this was from weeks ago I just never posted it. i’m better now, so no worries people! Seriously no problemo it’s alright.

I’d also like to say thanks to all my good friends who watch out for me and are always ready to beat people up if need be. I love you and am sooooo glad to know you all! I’m so blessed to have such amazing friends. ^-^

~rachel lynn~

Sometimes it is surprising,

how much you can put behind you

how much you can forgive and forget

how much you can love someone

how much you can believe in the future,

how much faith you can have in a promise never made,

faith in but a dream

a dream that should be stale,

but has stayed fresh and new and hopeful for so long

a heart broken and repaired

the love is there

just in the wrong place

I dare you to find it and

put it where it belongs

I’ll be waiting

[A/N] comment if you wanna know about the last part… it might not mean what you think it means

~rachel lynn~

my poems are getting so selfish

it’s all about me

my heartbreak

my feelings

my situation

my pain

my love

it’s all about me

i want to get out

i want to share my world with someone else

i want someone else to share their world with me

i want out of this childish state full of

i wants

i want you to be happy

i want you to share

i want you

for me

mine

this is so painful for

me to write because it’s true

i want you

i want you so bad it aches inside

my heart

my soul

my stomach

oh heck

my liver

my kidney

any vital organ will do

i want you

my poem can’t seem to end because

I cannot conclude

my feeling

i may as well just cut it off right here, so

I will

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"Oh I am what I am
I do what I want
But I can’t hide

And I won’t go
I won’t sleep
I can’t breathe
Until you’re resting here with me

And I won’t leave
I can’t hide
I cannot be
Until you’re resting here with me"

-Here With Me, Dido

~rachel lynn~

I knew it,

I knew there was stuff going on

there was stuff going on that

seemed like too much

an escape, you sought an escape

why didn’t you come to me?

why get angry at the one who’s been there, the whole time?

maybe you didn’t mean to… maybe you were not responsible

but ohh, this hurts

i’ve been here

and you’ve been going on by yourself

making excuses

bearing the burden

the heavy, heavy burden

all by yourself

it’s not fair, you need to share it

ohh, this hurts me

the part of me that is infinitely attached to you,

the part of me that hurts when you do,

the part of me that very much feels your pain, even when you don’t

i feel every bump in the road

every pothole

every jolt

i need to know where we are going,

where we’ve been even

and where we are now

where are you?

what the heck is going on?

"if you really keep the royal law found in scripture,
‘love your neighbor as yourself,’ you are doing right"*
but how to love my neighbor since i dont love myself
i dont forgive myself
He has forgiven me
He loves me
i cant seem to do it
i cant see why i should be forgiven
even when others have forgiven me
"faith by itself, if not accompanied by action, is dead"**
where is my action
where is my faith
where is my trust
where is my forgiveness
i am dead
well i was dead
He has made me alive
i have to take action
i have to forgive myself
i will take action
i will forgive me
i am taking action
i am forgiving myself
i am forgiven
"for whoever keeps the whole law and
yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking it all"***
i am guilty
i do not love myself
i am not patient with me
i am not kind to me
i envy
i boast
i am proud
i am rude
i am self seeking
i am easily angered
i most definitely
with unfailing doubt
keep a strong detailed records
of every single insignificant wrong
so now
i am forgiven
my wrongs erased
i have the ability
the capacity
to love others
as i love myself
because i love myself
as Christ loves me
i am forgiven
i am free

*James  2:8 (NIV)

** James 2:17 (NIV)

*** James 2:10(NIV)

Forgiving

forgive and forget

sometimes you do it without thinking,

sometimes the forgiveness comes before the apology

Sometimes it doesn’t matter what happens

or who says what

whose mistake it was

sometimes

forget and forgive is the only way out

leave it behind and move forward

leave it behind and move on

we got each other’s backs

even if we’re the ones breaking them

<3

sincerely,

~rachel lynn~

why dont you buy me an island
so we can jus be
forever together out by the sea
no worries
no troubles
no large land mass of which to speak
so why dont you buy me an island
and we can jus be

****this was written FOREVER ago. serisously, like 10th grade. i cant believe i found this. i forgot all about it. wow.****